The Longing For A Time Which Is Any Time But Now
For a year now
I think
(Perhaps it’s more. It’s hard to say now that time and promises are no longer a sustainable thing)
I feel like
The prairie fields of my heart
which I used to gambol
barefooted through
with infinite agility
and endless anticipation
has been attacked by the
quickly stacking
Jenga blocks of
futile news stories
an unbearable grief for tenderness
punishing bills
the taunting of age
The ongoing quarrel with darkness
The plaintive wail of solitude
The forever lost days
The drinking
The binging of Euphoria which leaves me feeling empty and hopeless
And the longing for a time which is any time but now.
Add to that
my obsessive fixation with my phone
which I stare at endlessly
Like it’s my prom date
the minute that her lace gown and corsage
Land at her ankles on the floor of a Hyatt
And that’s when the Jenga blocks collapse.
And down the rabbit hole
I
go
Just
like
Alice
Until tarts
And tea parties
And pools of tears
Float me back to the top
Where once again
If you tread long enough
Dreams will be born again.
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